Things 2019 has taught me so far

I used to think that if I was in my best shape/weight, other people would dislike me. Almost as if my physical accomplishments were taking away from theirs.

I used to think that if I wanted people to feel better about themselves, I should never talk about me and only ask about them. Almost as if my personal thoughts/stories/opinions were pointless to their growth.

I used to think that food was mainly for pleasure. Mouth pleasure. Almost as if I only listened to my taste buds and not my stomach and full body.

I used to think that being alone was the best thing in the world. Almost as if independence is the most productive and fruitful way to live.

I used to think that eye contact was creepy when having a conversation. Almost as if I should never deserve someone’s full attention. 

I used to think sleep was the worst part of my daily routine. Almost as if I didn’t require a recharging of my brain and body and I could run on empty like a superhero forever.

I don’t believe these things anymore. I found a way out of those dark and idiotic thoughts.

Examples of self-destruction

While on a bus trip, I decided to ask my Instagram story what are the worst ways that humans can self-destruct themselves? Here are the responses, feel free to add your own in the comments:

Not staying true to yourself. Stop doing stuff or saying stuff just to please society. I think when you’re not honest with yourself and you’re not listening to your inner voice, that’s when you self-destructed.

To continue to put limits on yourself that don’t exist.

Construct nuclear weapons.

Indulgence. Hate. Jealousy.

Thinking that your voice/opinion is unnecessary for people to hear. Mostly in conversational settings.

Giving in way too easy to outside voices. She did this, he said that… you amplify the words and actions of others to the point where it’s almost impossible to see any good. Staying connected to what really makes you happy will always help in keeping your head up, and your heart open.

Overthinking and doubting your capabilities!!!

Stress about too many things… if it won’t matter a year from now it’s not worth obsessing over.

If you can be a master of your own creation than you can be a master of your own destruction too. The mind is both your greatest strength and your greatest weakness. Too much thought and you become paralyzed in indecision while too little thought leads to the snowballing of poor decisions with grim consequences. In other words, humans haven’t yet realized that there is a limit to how much of the natural world they can control and it’ll be too late when they find out what that limit is. You need to let go and let nature take its course and simply co-exist.

Forgetting to self care, or deliberately not self caring, so like not showering, not having your daily cup of coffee/tea, throwing your coat on the floor instead of hanging it up. Really easy things that make you feel human that sometimes you don’t do.