I used to think that if I was in my best shape/weight, other people would dislike me. Almost as if my physical accomplishments were taking away from theirs.
I used to think that if I wanted people to feel better about themselves, I should never talk about me and only ask about them. Almost as if my personal thoughts/stories/opinions were pointless to their growth.
I used to think that food was mainly for pleasure. Mouth pleasure. Almost as if I only listened to my taste buds and not my stomach and full body.
I used to think that being alone was the best thing in the world. Almost as if independence is the most productive and fruitful way to live.
I used to think that eye contact was creepy when having a conversation. Almost as if I should never deserve someone’s full attention.
I used to think sleep was the worst part of my daily routine. Almost as if I didn’t require a recharging of my brain and body and I could run on empty like a superhero forever.
I don’t believe these things anymore. I found a way out of those dark and idiotic thoughts.