Intro for the diddy…

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Welcome to my brain, humans of the internet. Simply put, I made this blog so that my obsession with writing notes in my iPhone could be put to some use. These posts will include my random thoughts, my creative endeavours, as well as other things that I want to share with the world. Feel free to share or don’t, I won’t care either way.  Click here: the diddy . 

Photo captured by: Alvin Collantes

My grandmother.

The influences in my life that are humans are as follows (in no particular order):

Bo Burnham, Kaelin Isserlin, Lin-Manuel Miranda, Miley Cyrus, Linda Garneau, Evan Peters, Julie Andrews, Lady GaGa, and my grandmother.

I will attempt to explain my reasons for why these people have a greater influence on me than others. Hope it functions properly.

A super-heroine butterfly who cooks like a BOSS.

My grandma has every right to brag about herself. Her culinary skills could swipe the whole competition. She has the most caring heart for everyone around her and always puts her family first. Funny thing is, she has NEVER been one to talk highly of herself. All of the goodness and love that encompasses her presence never seems to turn into greediness nor hate. I have come to be so inspired by her and I am still wondering how I got so lucky to have her as my grandmother.

I never met my Nonna—my Italian grandmother on my mother’s side—and I often imagine if she was as amazing. My dream is to live my senior years in Italy somewhere so I can be buried close to my heritage. I think it would be so ideal if the bright, white lights of heaven’s gate appeared in front of me and right there is my Nonna, making pasta. Pretty nice. While it is amusing to craft a dreamy picture of what you think your family would act like, I am humbled by the fact I can personally witness my grandmother’s life while she is alive. I feel attached to her successes and discoveries and hope that she stays on the Earth for a long time.

Her absolute selflessness reminds me that every human has so much kindness to share. We are all wrapped up in our individual lives and that can turn quickly into arrogance. My grandma remains so giving with her heart, and I know she will continue to have an unlimited amount of positive energy. Whenever she smiles, I just have to join her.

I want to give back to her all the fresh cookies, clean sheets, clever jokes and warm hugs that she has provided me with for the past 20 years. Spending time with her is one thing but it’s not enough. She deserves the world and the moon. I try to visit my grandparents once a month or so to ask them about life, the future and theatre (they brought me to my first musical). Their knowledge and overall patience with my horrible ignorance helps me to reset and ground myself. I have vivid memories of our family cottage in my childhood and both my grandmother and grandfather shaped my experience in such a profound way. I think the most memorable would be the times when my grandmother would let me set up the “cookie plate” for dessert. She knew it would be so exciting for a big-eyed girl like me to organize and display treats for my family, and I’ll never forget that.

I have to mention the fact that my grandparents have been married for over 50 years. Through thick and thin, they have stayed by each other’s sides and still, to this day, are the only representation of real love that I have seen. Since we are talking about my grandmother as an individual, her unmitigated love for my grandfather gives me hope that it is possible to unconditionally love another person. Of course, I love my grandpa too, but I think he would agree that my grandma is an angel who makes everyone a better person.

Grandma, I love you and admire you to no ends. I hope one day to be as incredibly strong as you are.

Re: The Stories We Tell by Jack Harries

I’ve been following (also in love with) Jack Harries since he started posting Youtube videos seven years ago. At first, I saw him as the ideal Brit with a fantastic accent and funny views on living. His twin brother Finn also caught my eye and from then on, these brothers were the British Zack and Cody for me. However, as I grew up, as they grew up, and as their video content started to change, I found different qualities in them that I respected. It wasn’t just that they were easy to look at, but they had real talent and intelligence about the world. I stayed close.

I’m going to only talk about Jack for right now, because he is the one who continues the channel. Finn, I see you. I see you.

When Jack posted the video I linked above that discusses the up and downs of his life, I immediately connected with his honesty. His perspective on social media and mental health inspired me to reflect on why our internet appearance can ruin our real-life experience. Key-word is “can” here, because I don’t think this happens to every person with an Instagram account; it only applies to the group of users that have trouble functioning with the on-going rise of online interactions. I think I am a part of this group.

Jack speaks in the video about how when we click that post button, we are telling a story. Not necessarily the most truthful story but a story nonetheless. He recognizes that as each of us build an online profile for the public to analyze, our perception of close friends, family members or other people we interact with changes. They are not separate worlds. Our reality in society and the reality on the internet have direct links to one another now that so many people use social media. I often feel weirdly grateful for the times that I meet someone who I haven’t yet met on Instagram. It’s almost as if that never happens anymore. If I didn’t rely on social media for research on other people’s lives, how different would my friends group be? Would I know less information about them? Shouldn’t that scare me? My brain is combining all the stories from the accounts I follow with the encounters I’ve had in real-life to construct opinions on other people. So, we’ve added a second variable to the equation of how I perceive a person. While this could potentially augment our personal relationships, I am weary of the fact that it could also destroy the potential of a strong relationship. Stories can now be told through posts and updates rather than sitting down and hearing/reading a story.

Another incredible point to Jack’s talk is that he opens up about his mental health and how working too much on our online appearance can be exhausting. He admits to needing to take time off of his YouTube channel and neighbouring film company. While this is of course very honest of him, I can’t help but wonder why something you love to do can tire you out. I can see that Jack is passionate about capturing stories and visiting places that are new to him and so, I find it so sad that he felt overwhelmed by it all. The pressure of constantly creating is terrifying. Perhaps we all need a break, even from activities we find most enjoyable. Perhaps there could be a happy medium. This is something every human has to figure out during their life.

Another thought that popped into my head after watching this video was that maybe the like button is the villain rather than social media itself. We press a button and our judgement is publicized. Anyone can see the posts you like and the ones that didn’t get your approval. And I think it’s true that when you don’t redden the heart on a post, people will think you don’t actually like the post. This small action of pushing a heart creates another story within itself. I’m curious about why there is no dislike button on Instagram but there is on YouTube, Facebook (the mad and sad emoji’s are very similar to disliking a post), and Reddit. Are we not allowed to dislike something? Does everyone need to love and be loved? Twitter has an interesting take on the dislike button by making your downvote a private matter. It won’t directly show up that you don’t like a tweet but it will cater your timeline to what it thinks you would like instead. That way, it is your business if you want to see something pop up on your timeline. I think this is very smart. You go, Twitter.

Jack’s creativity continues to inspire me and encourage me to tell stories. Whether that be through a picture of my cottage or filming myself exploring dance, my social presence will create another version of me. Let’s see in the next 10 years where it goes from there. There is so much more to discuss about social media’s influence on our everyday lives and so I want to extend my gratitude to Jack for filming this chat he gave as a part of Mental Health Awareness Week.

Thank you, Jack!

Self-destruction, schedule overload, silence

This is a short phrase I conceptualized in my Creative Performance Studies class on Sept. 24, 2018. Our professor, Kate Hilliard asked us to determine if we are using narrative, abstract or task-based processes. I used all three.

I gave myself the task to try and reach my left hand to my right hand while my right hand is stuck behind my back. From there, my narrative instincts created a plot with a clear beginning, interesting middle and emotional ending. Lastly, I analyzed my movement to be abstract in the sense that it mimics what my depression feels like.

Clip located here.

How do we approach a master class? (A 3-Part Exposition)

Part 1: The teacher

For Part 2, click here. For Part 3, click here.

For a class to be considered “masterful”, there must be an element that furthers the learning for the students. A teacher must be experienced in the certain subject they are teaching and are able to offer information unique to their career path. For example, a juggling coach would be perfect to teach a juggling class because they are able to demonstrate the action and work with the students to achieve the goal of 3 balls in the air. A juggling coach would not be perfect to teach a class on Thermodynamics because it is not in their field. It makes logical sense.

So then, why are there teachers, that are currently working right now, who show up unprepared and uneducated in their respective skills? If they are not a master of their craft, then they cannot offer a master class. They are free to explain to the students that possibly they are still in training or almost finished a degree of some kind, but it is vital that that information is being communicated to the students. Afterall, most teachers nowadays balance teaching jobs as they continue to study their respective subjects. Whether or not that is the case, a teacher cannot stand in front of a class of eager students and pretend to carry the appropriate education on their back. It will show very quickly if a teacher is under-qualified. In addition, the students are most likely paying for this service, making it immorally wrong.

Now, there are instances where a teacher may be asked a question by their student that the teacher cannot answer. This is maybe due to the fact that a student has taken the information they learned from their teacher and expanded upon it. This is a teacher’s ideal goal for a master class because it shows that the student is at a point in their learning process where they feel comfortable and able to create their own hypotheses. The old saying of “The student becomes the teacher” is, in all forms of pedagogy, exactly what a teacher wants for their students. While it might frighten the teacher, the students are supposed to transition out of being beginners. That is why a master class is a great opportunity.

Let’s gravitate to a more specific example: a dance teacher who offers a class in popping and locking. Whether or not the students are starting from scratch or are already well-versed in this style, the teacher should choose to promote this as a master class. This style is a strand of hip-hop that requires profound coordinating of usual body parts. Some teachers would even say that it is more difficult to learn than ballet. So, there must be some way that the teacher is setting the students up for being interested in the style. If the teacher is qualified, they are welcome to market themselves as a master of popping and locking and the students will then be able to have a better respect for their teacher.

It begs the question if all dance classes should be labelled with “master” in the marketing. Shouldn’t all dance teachers be masters if they are old enough to teach? Sadly, this is not a sound argument because there are instances where a dancer thinks they have automatically graduated to the status of teacher. It is agreeable to say that all dance teachers can dance, but it is inaccurate to say that all dancers can teach. Whether or not, a dancer has had impressive training in a countless number of styles, there is a different perspective when teaching dance. Ultimately, the dancer must switch their brain into a less egotistical frame of mind. This is not to say that dancers are selfish. Dance is a very community-based genre of art. However, dancers must be able to let go of trying to show off their capabilities so that the students are actually learning rather than just watching. A master class is not for a teacher to dance their own choreography or exercises and abandon the proper values of teaching. It is for students to take their skill level to new heights. If a dancer wants to choreograph a combination and have another person provide the teaching of it, that is perfectly fine too.

So, to aptly call a dance class “master”, the teacher must be educated in the style they are teaching as well as focused solely on the students’ growth throughout the class.

To conclude this section, a teacher’s role in a master class rests on their history of training and their ability to communicate how a student will get to be at that skill-level. Any wavering of this perspective will send the students down a reverse path of development. Similarly, if a teacher wants to sleep at night and feel like they are a great teacher, they must remember to put the students first. Teaching is not an easy task to do, but when done correctly, it has the potential to be very significant in a student’s life.

How do we approach a master class? (A 3-Part Exposition)

Part 2: The students

For Part 1, click here. For Part 3, click here.

Now, to move onto the other humans in the room. It is crucial to understand that there will be an immense variety of students in a master class, whatever the subject. Due to the natural developments of the human brain, every student learns differently and at a different pace. Therefore, if the student is having trouble understanding the teacher or the concepts at play, then it may not be their fault. Students should use this obstacle as a way to further understand what helps them to learn. Here’s an example: a student is taking a course on Data Management and the teacher asks them to read the next chapter out of their textbook. For some students, this technique caters towards independent learning which can be beneficial for shy students. According to this website, this is referred to as Solitary or Intrapersonal Learning. However, for other students, they would rather learn with the teacher’s voice as the whole group of students participate in discussion because it offers a sense of communal trust. This is called Social or Interpersonal Learning. Of course, there are many more ways to learn and these are what make humans special. Thus, blaming the student for their difficulties is absurd because it may be a simple change of trying a different teaching method.

Let’s switch gears here. Not to be negative, but what if the student really is the problem? It is an appropriate question to consider because when a teacher outputs all the information they can in a manner that is helpful for the specific student, it is up to the student to take it and run with it. Unfortunately, there can be students (mostly young) who take the opportunity of a master class for granted. They might see it as a normal thing that they get ever week or so and might never see the great privilege they are getting. They might pretend they are bored and try to mess around with the teacher in hopes of getting a laugh out of the other students. Even still, a teacher cannot be directly blamed if a student is acting out in class or disrespecting the environment. The goal for the teacher is that the students are mastering their skills, but this cannot proceed if the student has no discipline or curiosity for learning. Indeed, this may come as they mature. If the students really take into consideration how powerful class time really is, maybe they will stop wasting it with silliness. After all, they are probably not the ones paying the high fees for a master class.

It is evident how a student approaches a master class when they make a blunt mistake. For example, if a dance student falls while executing a pirouette turn, they may laugh about it, cry about it, brush it off, slap themselves for it, ask the teacher for more guidance, hide from the teacher… the list goes on. Mistakes are the most natural thing to happen in a master class, yet they are often seen as failure or weakness. Due to pressure from the others, the student may feel they cannot make a mistake because their peers would look down on them. This student dynamic will ruin the opportunity for growth, and make the students feel like they have to be perfect. So, whether it comes from the teacher, a parent, or the student themselves, making a mistake should be expected in a master class. Then the student can let go of any anxiety that’s stopping their development and strive to be better with each day. Nobody wants to feel like they are incapable of something great.

So, for a student to really “master” their skills and perform to the best of their abilities, they must honour the gift of class and set free any worry that they are going to look bad. This is easier said than done for some students, but if each and every student in the group is supporting one another, everyone can learn in the style that suits them best.

To conclude this section, here is a video of a young Brianna taking her first Stomp The Yard class with Dahlia Caro at Leeming Danceworks in 2012. Notice the fear in my face. I was the youngest of the group and definitely the least experienced with the style, but I remember feeling safe enough to try. Dahlia was always a very comforting teacher who wanted to see the best out of her students. Go check her out on Instagram here. This video documents an extremely scary moment in my life, however, I like to look back on it as a successful one too.

 

How do we approach a master class? (A 3-Part Exposition)

Part 3: Social media

For Part 1, click here. For Part 2, click here.

Another huge part of how we approach a master class that has taken off in recent years is social media. It has mostly taken off in the dance world, so this section will be geared towards the society of dance in North America.

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Whether or not a teacher or student uses it in a class, social media has changed the way we approach a master class. There are now countless videos online that display a combination of moves from the end of a dance class. If you are unaware, go check out Tricia Miranda’s YouTube channel here, and you’ll see exactly how popular these videos can be for viewers. It’s as accessible as ever to watch what the teacher and dancers worked on. So, it begs the question if it is changing the dance world for the better or for the worst.

Starting off with the pros, social media allows dancers/teachers to share their experience within a master class for the purposes of archival material. The teacher may want to develop a portfolio for future work or to reference for a later project. This is an admirable desire because it shows that the teacher is proud of their work and thinks that others can be inspired by it. Likewise, the dancer may want to show off (in an un-diva way) the movements and concepts they worked on because they were satisfied with their improvement during the class. This is also an admirable desire because it shows that a dancer is not afraid to expose their mistakes and achievements. The dancer is putting themselves up for critique and again, building a portfolio for future jobs/opportunities. Posting a video for everyone to see not only helps promote the teacher/dancer, but also the space they are dancing in. Millennium Dance Complex in Los Angeles has built a reputation upon posting dance videos, and it has grown as a popular studio ever since. More people gravitate toward it because they know it will provide a platform for pursuing a career in dance. Wonderful! Everyone can grow!

Another benefit to social media is that audiences can decide if they would like to try a certain master class and what dance styles appeal to them from viewing a video posted on a teacher’s/dancer’s account. This creates a community of openness for dancers who feel they are new to a certain style, as well as an opportunity for advanced dancers to try other styles/teachers. Again, another wonderful situation for growth!

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However, when looking at the cons of social media’s role in the dance world, there are many destructive habits that are constantly being used. One of these being the idea that if you do not post about a master class, it is considered that you were not there. There is a certain amount of pressure that comes with posting because the audience may forget about you if you do not show them what exactly what you do with your time. This pressure can be so toxic and negative for everyone. It can turn us into self-centered people whose only ambition is to get attention from others. In addition, we may feel like we missed out on a master class if a certain post gets tons of likes or comments, even though the class is completely separate from the video that is posted. FOMO is real.

Not only does social media create more pressure to post about every class, it also can ruin the incredible experience of a master class for a dancer/teacher. A dancer might end up spending the whole class worried about getting picked for the video that they will lose all sight of what a master class if for: learning. Let’s say a teacher has a high following on social media and the master class they are teaching gathers a crowd of over 100 students. It is almost certain that this teacher will end out the class by finding a group(s) of dancers that they feel did the best and video taping the combo/routine for posting. That is so much extra pressure on the students!! They may end up feeling like they cannot actually attempt new concepts because then the video may not be “post-worthy”. In my own experience, I have taken many classes where the teacher does not even seem interested in how the students are progressing because they are more fixated on how good their video will look. What a waste of time!!

If a teacher is spending the whole hour and a half thinking about which dancers look good together and which dancers do not deserve to be in the video, they are putting up a wall between them and the students. A class cannot be deemed “master” if the teacher prioritizes the end result of a class rather than the journey it takes to get there.

So, it is a bit of a mixed bag when looking at social media and master classes. Do we continue to share what we did in hopes that others will be inspired? Do we continue to share what we did in hopes that others will like us? It’s up to us to use our knowledge as dancers and teachers to make a decision about social media. Or else, it could lead us to spoil the great blessing that is a master class.

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Favourite tweets of my own twitter account

So, long story short, I will be deleting my Twitter account in the near future. I still love the app and adore the comedians that bust out the best one liners within the platform. But I need a break from the political side of it all. Trump is the worst thing that has ever happened to Twitter and frankly, I think someone should shut it down like they did to Vine.

Allow me to be a bit self-absorbed while I make this list of my favourite (and still important today) tweets that I’ve posted in the last 7 years of my account. I want to document them in one place, so I can show my kids what my random thoughts were like. I am not going to explain any of these tweets. So, enjoy the ambiguity. Sorry in advance.

Just joined twitter!! FINALLY!
9:42 AM – 12 Feb 2011

Go insane, go insane throw some glitter make it rain now now let me see them hands let me let me see them hands! I ❤ Ke$ha’s songs!!!!
7:25 PM – 18 Feb 2011


Guess who’s on level 1000 of Unblock Me?? That’s rite! MOI!
2:54 PM – 23 Feb 2011


So there’s a Hot Wheels bike 4 boys, a Barbie bike 4 girls but there’s no bike 4 aliens!! 😦 Don’t u think they get bored up there in space?


Lemonade Mouth= BEST. MOVIE. EVER!!!!! 😀

9:56 PM – 22 Apr 2011

Well… That was just….. Very disturbing!! Go see a councilor! 🙂


Just watched Never Say Never. Really inspired by some little canadian boy. Live ur CRAZZZYYY life, @justinbieber

11:18 PM – 22 May 2011

U know what? Calm down, I just don’t want to tell u rite now, okay?? Geez

6:05 PM – 30 May 2011

@TheCodySimpson , I just watched ur performance on So Random and LOVED IT!!! Ur sooo talented and I love ur music! #AMAZING


Sitting on the couch watching Phineas and Ferb!! 😀 love this show! #BEAST


Ok so u know how people feel like 1 million bucks? Well… My body feels like a penny…. :S 😦


@tessa_clarke I wanna be so famous that I have to have my babies in Africa! 😉


WOWIE! ADELE SINGING BEAUTIFULLY, CHRIS BROWN FLYING & DANCING, BRITNEY TRIBUTE, and BEYONCÉ PREGGS! 🙂 still #speechless


This is awkward… #b-dayparties when u don’t really know people


Scheiße


Inspiring improv tonight. Learned a lot from watching some IN-CRED-IBLE dancers and friends! Very blessed to have that opportunity! 🙂


Why does music keep me from my homework?? ;P When I’m listening to my iPod while doing hw, & good songs come on, I have to get up & dance!


Friday! School dance and Selena Gomez concert! #lotsoffun


Really happy with my straightened hair today! 🙂 But I just realized I have to put it in a bun for ballet… #waste


Dear weekends, Please never end. K, thanks! Signed, I don’t want to wake up tomorrow morning!


I’m too inspired to go to bed right now….


Spending my last few hours of 2011 watching Boy Meets World. #mychildhood #memories


Just finished the second Hunger Games book. Such a good ending. O.O


All dressed up and ready to go for the #HungerGames premiere. Too bad I can’t see it till next weekend. #lifeasadancer


If I could wear sweatpants and a hoodie everyday, I would… #socomfy


There’s never a dull moment with dance. 🙂 Kinda like it.


Sometimes I just need some time away from everything.


@tessa_clarke: Trinity: you know what they say, you don’t know.” that’s like her catch phrase 😉

6:08 PM – 1 May 2012

These past few days have been so special. So many memories and they will not be forgotten. Love you all. God bless.


It’s difficult for me to say goodbye to something when saying hello is like a second nature.


Ugh. School is so pointless anyways…


Andrew Garfield just quickly became my obsession after that movie. #spidey


Spending National Dance Day at my cabin that doesn’t have electricity. #whoopee -.-


Inspiration can come from anywhere or anyone at any time at any place in your life.


I think too much. Especially at night.


Those car trips where you listen to almost your whole music library. 🙂


CHANNING TATUM ISSS SOOO HOT HE’S MAKING ME MELT


Those people that you could listen to them talk all day. #inspiration #reflecting


I imagine what my body would sound like.


Happy birthday to most astonishing singer I know. @ingridmusic , your music has made me realize there’s no other way to live than to love.


Christmas is the happiest and saddest day of the year.


Sometimes I hate sleep. Sometimes I think it just shouldn’t be a necessity. Then, there would be time to do the things we want. Anyone else?


@CoryMonteith: Gleeks of my Homeland: Don’t miss the return of #Glee – Jan 24 at 9pm ET/PT on @Global_TV” wouldn’t miss it for the world!!


Just keep convincing yourself that you are capable


I absolutely love guys who can sing. #onetruelove


At a loss for words .  .          .


We’re all just constantly trying to locate the “why”


It’s so nice and warm outside. #happyday #happytweet #happyeverything


Grandma, this weekend is for you.


did anyone feel that? Did ANYONE feel that?! DID ANYONE FEEL THAT? -my class right now


No more cue cards. No more cramming. No more papers with useless words on them. I have finished my 9th year of school. 🙂


I desire not to stray… But I must.


Think it’s about time to bring out the heroes for my dizzied-mind called the EARPHONES. #givethemaroundofapplause #theysavemefromeverything


Her


Favourite thing about today? Being in a room with not just dancers but ARTISTS. I’m so grateful that dance can bring us all together. #jump


Thank you @MMRAW for your class today!! It’s so much fun to dance with you. 🙂


#thunderation #warmfuzzies #sallywalker #PostLSCdepression


Going to *$


Just wanna be “cool”


I feel like in the near future we will call each other by our usernames and not our actual names. Woah. Hope not.


The difference in pop culture from 1920’s to 2013 @Andreapolak3


Haven’t cried in awhile. Not sure if that’s a bad thing or a good thing.


I can’t handle @McSensfan


“When I grow up, I want to be a garbage truck because then I go around and see the houses.” -Trinity


Vintage cotton sweaters have become a big part of my life. #mymomhassuppliedme #thankful


Dom is here. I am happy.


The “WOO” in I Will Wait makes my life.


“Work hard, party harder.” -mr shulist’s philosophy. Wise words, my friends.


I listened to 7 Things this morning and it made the start to my day much better. Miley never disappoints.


I’ve got issues but don’t need some tissues thank you very much


You know you can never judge someone’s dancing on just a photo. You have to be present in their movement to realize grasp what you’re seeing


So down to lie down


I really want to bring back skorts.


Trying to hide from our problems is like playing hide and seek in a small room


Special moment: looking into someone’s eyes and they’re looking too and even if it’s for just two seconds, you know they care about you.


Being a teenager in the 80’s probably would have been much better. 🙂


My right hip flexor needs to STOP painfully stabbing me every time I bring my leg above 5 degrees… #firstweekback


Patrick Chan, you are so beautiful on frozen water… GAHH


There is not a single Ingrid Michaelson song that I wouldn’t dance to. Period


Oh wow (Ever realized how many ways this can be read?)


It’s so funny how we can flashback in our flashbacks


You caught me when I was winking


I’m sad to say the only thing I will miss about being 15 is that I need a new theme song. T-swift’s song has expired.


I wish that as soon as you see a cute boy, they are like shielded from other people so that it’s all for you.


Whoever put in the time to write those hearts on everyone’s lockers, bless you. You are making a lot of Tigers happy today!


Come back when you can


So. This is. Amazing.


The fact that Mme Roch told me today that she used to be able to do the splits made my day so much better.


Everytime Heart’s A Mess comes on, I just freaking lose it and have to scream “DESPERATE TO CONNEECTTT”


Toronto, why do I get depressed every time I have to leave you? I swear I will live in you one day.


And a Britney song was on. And a Britney song was on. And a Britney song WAS ON.


“A keather student.” “A what?” “A KEATHER STUDENT!” “Oh a cash register.” “Yes a keather student.”


The Sprouse twins live some seriously rad lives.


Bucket list: go to a performance at 54 Below.


What else can I say? I love my team. I love Ottawa. Good night


Mia Michaels’ class made me so happy. Thank you. @MMRAW 🙂 #neverlandbound


Tuna+avocado+cheese=greatest taste on earth


I love to listen to him. @realjohngreen


I’m so happy I’m 16 because the 6teen theme song is ma true jam. #gottamakethegoodtimeslast


It’s a three-braids kind of day


When you see bae


Who’s down for a party where we just play BOP IT


I just want to be homeeee. Not stuck in some creepy town in the states.


Commercials just keep getting worse and worse ughh


I find it so funny that gymnasts can just hang out in ponché pose.


I need to play Cards Against Humanity ASAP


If I die young, bury me in yogurt covered pretzels.


Finished my summer with 4 bowls of cereal. Yepppppp


“Never ever EVER leave home without your periodic table. It’s your toolbox. Without it you’re useless.” -mr Ruddy


@jumpdance day 1 is complete


Everything just seems to be whizzing by. I can’t focus on one thing, in particular


This chem group chat is bae right now


Just remember, your best is ALWAYS sticker-worthy. #chemcuties


@miikaelapereira we’ll see. The past is long gone. #RudD must decide.


@JordynSH7 the Chem life didn’t choose you, you chose the chem life


Taught ruddy what third-wheeling was in chem class


Get your G2 license and suddenly your message app isn’t so empty.


You can hate on my running shoes. Go ahead. But my arches feel like beasts.


My bed seems to be the best place now but I’m still a little turnt…


I will always love and respect @ladygaga


musicals musicals musicals broadway broadway broadway I WANT TO BE IN A SHOW ONE DAY


I just want to dance I just want to dance I just want to dance I just want to dance I just want to dance I just want to dance. PLEASE


Dear @OfficialAdele , I’ve overplayed your old albums WAY too much recently. I need your new album in my life soon. Sincerely, every dancer.


I will never comprehend the power of dance. But I will always ALWAYS be fulfilled by it. #DGB #DIFD Thank u to all the dancers & teachers.


So this week was definitely one to remember. DGB, fun rehearsals, shaping sound, improv tonight & my birthday tomorrow. Cant ask for better.


You go Beck. Good fo you.


“Whoever said orange was the new pink was seriously disturbed.” -My icon for today


Late night thoughts: I kinda like it when people start a conversation with me with “Clarke.”

11:41 PM – 20 Feb 2015

Listening to the anthem and missing our lip-sync sessions in Bartlett’s…. #RIPSem1 @_Adrianna_1221


Still can’t get over the smile he gave me this morning. Chills…

6:57 AM – 2 Mar 2015

I am not lying to you when I say that I will NOT GET THROUGH THIS WEEK UNLESS THERE IS A SNOW DAY OR MY SCHOOL BURNS DOWN. #stressedbrianna



So much post-comp depression. So much.


First summer with my license and I’m stoked to have the open road, Windows down and the sun shining


watching ballet videos is my favourite pass time


I apologize for the mess I am about to appear as today. #themorningaftercomp


Will never forget these people


Highlight of my weekend: Salsa duet with the Shimmy King (aka: @mattdippolito )


No but seriously, how are Broadway musicals so incredible??!?


Perfect afternoon with trin: tea party and backyard gymnastics


I would be lying if I said I didn’t notice the changes in our lives day by day. I’m constantly aware of the shifts.


When I dream of my future, I see me dancing in a show 8 times a week. That’s where I want to be, that’s where I’ll get.


When ever @SaraBareilles comes on during shuffle, I get some kind of surreal emotion. She just gets music.


And now @ingridmusic ‘s Turn to Stone just decided to come up right after Sara and my life has just been explained to me. Gahhhhhhhhhh


The lyrics “Four cities, two planes, the same day” actually relate to me today. EWR->OKC


me: hi did a group of girls come by here? man at desk: i wish. This happened to me twice in 2 mins. #LA


Sometimes the world throws imbalances everywhere. And you have a small aneurism.


“There’s politics everywhere.” -my Uber driver tonight.


July brought me glorious treasures. And August will be the cherry on top


You can really find out a lot about a person by the style and colour of their dance journal.


Ryan Foley told me today to just go for my dance dream. Well alright. I guess I will.


If something is funny, laugh. Laugh so hard that your muscles get stronger. LAUGH. LAUGH. HAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHH


“Life is good. Life is hard.” -Sean Howe


“This song doesn’t make sense!” -Trinity about Milkshake by Kelis


I love @stephrutherford . That is what I feel.


I wish people didn’t have opinions on each other because we are constantly transforming into better versions of ourselves.


Arabesque en plié is the stuff I live for


Sometimes you’re up. Sometimes you’re flat on the floor trying to get your middle splits better.

I’m making decisions that will affect my entire life. That’s not scary at all. No. I’m fine. Totally fine.


I’m surprised I haven’t cried at school yet this year. #stressedbriannaequalscryingbrianna


When you theatre jazz all day and you realize this is the life you want to live 24/7.        Ya.


Me: “Are we doing Stoich this year?” Ruddy: “a very limited amount…” Me: “Limited… Not excess?”


“Make it matter.” –@MMRAW today in class. She is truly one of my inspirations for breaking past standards & being you. Thank you!!!!


I desire a life that is a constant pas de deux, with lullabies of the piano on repeat.


Death by chemistry


Be there or be cyclobutane #chemislife


@miikaelapereira hahaha it’s only in due time that Chem jokes will slowly become all you think about. #ruddyneverstops


The Broadway snapchat feed is giving me EXTREME feels of missing NYC. When will I live there??!!!


It’s a beautiful day to wake up because it’s MOLE DAY! #chemislife #6.02×10^23


Bread is a gift. To all that require a little pick me up. Or in my case, to ACTUALLY GET ME OFF THE FLOOR.


If you don’t know @troyesivan yet, you need to


Thought it was: “And if you broke an owl ninja, and I keep you sheltered from the storm that’s raging on.” for the longest time @edsheeran


you, you, you.


“What about love? Have I ever mentioned love?”


“I don’t know ether.” –@ericaantonitti #chemislife

2:01 PM – 10 Nov 2015

THANK THE LORD for YouTube. Without it, I wouldn’t be able to watch Gene Kelly’s old dance videos so easily. He was and is legendary.


“You’ll always be ready but you can never be ruddy.” –@FameronCox #chemislife


Dance always takes priority. I guess you could say it’s a carboxylic acid. #chemislife (@seanmillr thought of this)


If there’s one thing @justinbieber has shown me, it’s that he understands the power of dance.


Well I did it. I applied to Juilliard.


I haven’t slept in 3 months, my mind is nonstop future planning, my room is a mess. So my health isn’t a #1 priority anymore? Great, thanks.


I actually corrected Mr. Ruddy today. Put it on my resume. #chemislife


the first thing I will do on Xmas break is read a book. that is not for an essay. not for a project. but for me. for my health & well-being.


Feeling very grateful for my guy friends recently


Essays on essays on essays on applications on applications on stress on stress on stress.


Watch me strike a pose on my wasted time


I just lip-chapped my lips for 5 mins straight. Good night Twitter.


I am going to the 1975 in Toronto in May and I am so excited I could cry.


If i wear a scarf, it is only appropriate that I run through my house and let it blow in the wind


Kanyé: “Yo Newton, ima let you finish but Huygen had the best theory of light of all time.” @ann_presley thought of this. #physicsislife


People don’t kill sig figs. Sig figs kill people. #chemislife


A no-name apple juicebox from Ruddy saved my life today.


Rip Sem 1 2015-2016 SCH4U. I’ll never forget the shins, timbits, “the Élaine” dancing, bumsies, grinds, and laughs.


“You die when you stop learning.” -Miss Folkes #calcislife


let’s have soft served ice cream, put on my indie/alternative playlist and remember the good times


Dear me: Disrupting your growth, demolishing your ambition, wrecking your curiosity, interrupting your self-love. Stop doing this. Love Bri.


The most embarrassing thing is getting called out by RYAN FREAKING FOLEY for not having a toe tap on your tap shoe during tap line.


I’m not emotional. I just think sometimes about how he doesn’t love me and how I feel empty without him. And I get sad. No big deal.


Still laughing about the fact that I had a dance off with miss folkes on friday. and she almost beat me.


In need of a really deep hug. Like the one where you can feel the sadness oozing out of you while someone who cares about you holds you. Ya.


Shoutout to @McC_Liam for being a real MVP today


Tonight I figured out something v crucial in my life: ……………………………………I love to be in the middle of dance circles.


Thought: open up the new day like your fav restaurant just got a whole new menu. Yes, it’s complicated and problematic. But you still go.


It’s saddening to look back on the last two years and realize that you would have been much happier if you hadn’t met a certain person.


“All in moderation, my dear, all in moderation. Too much [insert anything] can be a dangerous thing for a pure, young girl.”


“We all deserve love, even on the days when we aren’t our best. Cause we all suck, but love can make us suck less.” -bo yo


Do you ever wish someone walked around with you and observed your life? They could reveal to you all the mistakes you make?


4:26 am: I should get a tattoo on my inner thighs of circular arrows to direct my turnout muscles outwards


These are my sons and the last one is my dad


Would never wish upon my greatest enemy for them to wake up crying. It is a miserable way to start ur day & should never happen to anyone.


My dad just won best dance dad. He texted me this: “enjoy a week of musicality.” Eat your heart out Prop Dads !!


Even though T-Swift’s Red album may basically be one big cliché, I find myself going back to it in times of need.


I’m just really in love with Miley Cyrus.


My current state of sickness: I sneeze too hard and my shoulder starts to spasms and doesn’t stop until the short second of unconsciousness when I sneeze again.


Guilty pleasures: Other people have the Kardashians, shopping sprees, etc… I have youtubers and ex-viners.


Trying to remind myself that not EVERY year has to be a good year. It’s about the journey and the amount of love that is shared. This year coming up could be the worst one yet… but if I’m going into it with love, I’m doing okay. Happy New Year!!


“I had all and then most of you, some, and now none of you.” GORGEOUS LYRIC @LordHuron


Hi! Yes, my name is Brianna Clarke and I would like to audition. No… I didn’t have time to recover from my last audition or put on proper clothing but I’d still like to be seen for the part. My demi-pointe currently looks like this: is that suitable for your company?


Also in honour of @joshgroban and @SaraBareilles hosting the tonys remember when the uncharted music video was the biggest musical collaboration of our generation?! STILL SO GOOD


Contemplating if watching @TheTonyAwards by myself is a good idea but then again, I will be having multiple panic attacks every time I see Andrew Rannells on screen